When desirous of a life change, or any kind of a change, it's wiser to start from a place like: "I am who I am today, where I am today, because this was my choice and it has served me well. However, it no longer serves me, my choices have changed, and I give thanks for the amazing changes that now sweep through my amazing life."
Rather than, "I don't know how I got here. I hate this. I must be sabotaging my own progress. I just won't accept things as they are any more. I'm desperate for a change. By this time next year my life will totally rock!"
OK?? You don't even have to remember the choices that led you to the day, but by understanding you made them, the kingdom, the power, and the glory knowingly become yours.