Wednesday, December 03, 2008

~ A Mixed Feelings ~

Today is 3rd of December. It means, we have been 3 days in a new month. It means too, I have not write anything or update anything here for 3 days. Since 1st of December, I have been in a not so 'happy mode'. Well I'm not totally not being happy, but some how some where there is something missing. Or slipping? Huh... I just can't figure out what?

There is certain times in our life, we felt so down but we didn't know what causing it. And let me tell you, this is the time. The air in the office doesn't help at all. Everywhere I turn, there's negative vibes everywhere. A feeling of gloomy. A feeling of emptiness. A feeling of lost. Or should I say... blank?

In world wide web, there is too much junk mail in the inbox. Too much erotic messages in YM. Too much of everything. I felt suffocated.

Thank god, the home environment is still calm. And yet so relaxing. Even though there is tons of work to do. From cooking to washing the dishes to iron the clothes to preparing Irfan's bag for tomorrow. In those hectic chores I found serenity, I found completeness, I found me.

Just want to share with all the readers something that I received in the email today. Something that do make me realise that reality is a story board without an eraser.

"Sometimes, when you're feeling your lowest, MONA, the real you is summoned.

And you understand, maybe for the first time ever, how grand you are, because you discover that vulnerable doesn't mean powerless, scared doesn't mean lacking in beauty, and uncertainty doesn't mean that you're lost.

These realizations alone will set you on a journey that will take you far beyond what you used to think of as extraordinary.

There is always a bright side.

The Universe"


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